Beauty at it's finest.

I don't give a damn about my reputation...

Or do I? Uhh, Naah, I don't. But what I do give a damn about is WHY people that know nothing about me characterize me based on things they know nothing about. I mean, no matter where you go there are going to be people that'll say things about you for no apparent reason, or get in your business, but does it ALWAYS have to be that way for me? That's one of my pet peevs, nosy ass people. Why must you have something to say about every little thing i do, and try and pin point why i do certain things. You think you may know me, and you might even think you are helping me but you're NOT. You're just adding to the cause, making a greater effect. So Fuck Off.

Look into my Crystal Ball.

So today I went to the meeting @ Thoreau w/ my mom. It was chill. I mean there's no continuation school like Shores, but this will do for the time being. Let's start off with this, they drug test... Randomly. You have to take a test before they let you in, and of course I failed. The only thing my mom said was, ''what ever happened to D.A.R.E'' and left it @ that. Coolbeans. I might not be back home yet, but this is a constant reminder that i'm almost there. 4 more months and i will be a south bay resident, once more. i'm excited to start this new school, get a job, be more independent. i have the next 3 years perfectly planned out in my head, set forth goal, achieve, and look back at what i've gone through and be proud. i know i may do a lot of really retarded things, and i can't help it... but for the most part, i know i'm going in the right direction in life, according to what I think is right. and that's all that matters.

So i've been thinking..

School sucks. I hate School. Teachers can lick my balls. Taft eats dick. The valley= Rottville Life is gay. Parents suck. My aim is retarded. JobLESS. I miss HIM. New school soon. FUCK drug tests. Kush break :(. <-- that smiley has a mole. Glove set. Missed friends. Jazmines annoying. UGH!

Ok :) now that that's out. i'm just a little bit irritated with everything right about now. i've been wondering alot how would things be if i never even moved out here, how different things would be. sometimes i think it may have been a bit of a mistake, but then again i've met some nice people out here. I had it set in my head that i was going to move back with my daddy, but after some strong convincing from my lover i've decided to just stay in the valley and finish what i've started out here. the day i graduate i sware, i'm leaving this place. everything and everyone. i've established who i truly need and who truly needs me in life and well, i'm really not needed out here. i just can't wait to go home where i belong.

So far, So good...

Next on the list:

3. tongue
4. industrial, left ear
5. upper back tat
6. side tat
7. shoulder & wrist tat
8. sugar skull on arm or leg
9. dermal anchors, possibly

PRIME TIME!

First Off.. Happy 17th Birthday Jeremy! Secondly.. BAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAH!
So the weekend of February 13th- 15th, 2010 was some shit.
For Jeremy's birthday we decided to goto Love Groove, what a great decision. Me, Jeremy, Patrick, and pat's friend Andrea all missioned it to Victorville! The ride there was so damn hilarious, Joey and I were getting crunk in the car the whole way there, like Idk how I had anymore energy when I got to the rave. Anywho, once we get there Jeremy, Joey, and I pop. The line to get in was ridic! Prime Time and I started to roll at the same time and we were like fuck the bullshit lets just pay 20 and do the express line. So we did that. Bought our ticket and were in minutes after that. We hit up the Dub Room first, x____O Shit was on point, i swear! Straight Giggin' all night. Jeremy and I had like a mini brother sister talk while rollin' so it was all intense haa. I swooped on Joey <3.. yak i'm a slime :D So yah I saw alot of people that night, Stoia, Dom, Dima, CHACHEEE<3, Jon, Davyon, Sienna, Crystal, Leiel, Pedram, Afro Love, Summer, Anthony, Jonah, Otto! Such a chill time, one of the best nights of my life I wish i could go back! PRIME TIME was killing the light shows. We didn't leave Victorville until like 6 in the morning because the Chef was too fucked up still. I wish I could have recorded Jeremy while in the car, I sware funniest shit of my LIFE! So once we finally got back to RB we went to ottos and blazed and chilled and slept until like 6 ha, then went to the chefs and chilled and watched trippy shit on youtube. Went to sleep w/ Yogi :D then went to my dads the next morning. God man i sware, I miss my life! Had such a good time :D

February 7th-8th, 2010

My birthday weekend was the best ever! Went to my city RB and kicked it with my friends. Pretty much saw everyone that I wanted. Went to Anderson for ''Electric Sun Daze'' this little rave party that momo and els set up @ the park for everyone. Then went to Dereks for superbowl. Got 2 40oz and blazed. Stayed at Dereks for a while, had such a good time there, my goodness. Later on met up with Jeremy @ Rice Things :D and then went to C.J's and met up with more homies and alfred and them. Went back to anderson and toasted with some bars :) Ended up hanging out with Kelly Hey Hey, Lalo, Myko, and Gamers girl. Don't remember much from this night but I woke up in Marina Del Rey, tuhh. Went back to RB and met Jeremy up @ RUHigh. Got swooped by the Chef, then got blowed as fuck. My bday weekend was so chill, such good vibes :D

15h:21min

I'll be 18 soon :)
I don't know why i am so excited for my birthday to come along. I mean it's just another year right, it's not like i'm turning 21 or anything like that, just measly old eighteen. Fuck it, dude i'm excited. I've been waiting to eighteen for the longest... literally. Like I can buy porn, and goto clubs, and get a club card, goto jail, all that good shit :D Haha. Well today Tiahna and I are going to hang out w/ Leiel and his friends and get shwappy. Then tomorrow Redondoooo :) Not exactly sure what we will be doing but I know for a fact it will be oodles of fun! I'm just stoked to see my friends and smoke blunts and eat rice things <3

Yes I got my swagga back

So last night I talked to my mister and he made me happy! Pretty much really helped me out with the whole failing english and wtf am i going to do situation. Today Mahon didn't let me speak to Ms. Jenkins -__- But in play pro i told Michelle to remind me during Ms. V's to go talk to her. So i'll be doing that tomorrow.
Other than that today was a fine day. I love love love Ryan dude! She is like the person i've been needing out here! The back of Ms. N's class was def fun and i'm starting to meet a shit of connects and what not :D
She's getting us some hallusinagen shit tomorrow and a pre- birthday gift :D
So i'm stoked for that!
Anywho shucks i need to find a decent monolouge to do on friday for my play pro final.
If all fails i'll just recite the first 3 pages from Crank, that's always a good one.

Feelin' Alright.

Love love love.

I might fail english and have to take adult school but you know what... i don't care.

because i'm happy, and i love life and i'm living it up and having a good time.

I'll be 18 in 6 days and i'm just so happy that even after all the crazy shit i've done that i'm still alive :D



New ways, i got my teeth bleached today and they hella hurt alot -__-
My birthday is in 6 daysss i'm so damn excited, yippie! I wanna see someone... VERY BADLY!
Humm... what else?
oh well this past weekend i hung out with Etai, Yury, Brandon G., Michelle M., and Saam.
Good shit :) And then I hung out with Michelle C. and Jackie, I missed them moth so so much!
I don't really hang out with my grounp anymore because they are too cool for me now -__-
Uhhhh yah :)