New Tat Idea

So today I was thinking about my tattoo situation and I was thinking of more ideas for myself and I came across the whole Wolf thing. Since I am a partial desendent of the Aniyunwiya (Cherokee) Indians this suits me. Wolves have been a symbol of evil as well as good, either a demonic, brutal killer or a reflection of the mysterious, untamed wilderness. I think that's why this is a good idea for me as well. Wolves have either been looked at as a evil in some sort or looked up upon. Folk tales see the wolf as a threat to society, evil, demonic in a way. While Native-Americans see the wolf as a path finder or teacher. To them the wolf has great value and is looked upon as a strong and intelligent animal. This tat would have so much meaning to me. Because i'm Native- American, and as far as my characteristics I consider myself a wolf. The way I perceive myself and the way others perceive me is the way of the wolf. It's crazy how certain things can have a meaning that can completely describe you. Ha, anyways I also had the idea of changing my original Yin Yang idea and morphing it into a wolf and add some personal details and tweaks to it. I haven't decided yet, but I know for sure I am getting the wolf on my right ribs.

''Wolf Pack In This Bitch!''

WOW

I just realized that i've been through a lot of fucked up shit in my life.

Wow, Like I totally forgot about a lot of shit that's happened to me.

I guess I am stronger than what I think.

Lately

I've been having a lot going through my head. Things just were not making any sense to me, I was getting irritated and discouraged at the worst times. I couldn't really pinpoint where exactly all these negative emotions were coming from, or how I could stop them but they seem to be under control now. I really want to get to the source of my.. I guess I could call it ''depression'' states. But how do I do that? I don't know. I've been on an emotional roller coaster these past few months and even when I seem emotionally stable i'll try to think of reasons why this could be happening to me and it'll cause me to get upset, not because i'm sad but because I can't realize WHY! Right now so much shit is going on and I can barely take it all in. Between school, work, having a social life, dealing with my future, I feel like I have so much on my plate right now and my eyes are bigger than my mouth. I feel like I can't even really focus on what's important right now. Often times I wonder if I am starting to go crazy. Well I mean i'm already crazy but I think what little piece of sanity left is starting to fade away. I'm a complete different person, and it's all happening so all of a sudden. Only thing is I like it. Right now my life has it's Pro's and Con's. And I think I just figured out why everything seems to be too much for me. Now-a-days I am starting to not care what people think of me and my actions, I'm being more open with people about my life, sexuality, and beliefs, I feel like I am a better person now, then I have ever been. But with all this great self-discovery and what not there always has to be a balance of negative that I guess I have to overcome that will make my self-discoveries more valuable. Wow, I'm so glad i decided to blog, this really is making me appreciate my stumbling blocks. Hopefully I can be strong enough about this and overcome these whifs of heartache.

Jadie Wadie MY Babie!

MMMMMM Tasty ! :-* :) :P

Monie wants a boyfriend?

Maybeeeee ? o__O

I love my friends!

I really truly love these kids, they make me happy (:

The Time Is Coming!

Bitches Rollin Blunts

'' Good God I Love Marijuana! ''

-mo

Day 8

Woke up. Chilled all day. FREAK$$$ COME OUT AT NIGHT! Get swoopeed by Jon. Head to Dimas. POP. Smoke. Round 1/Round 2. POP. Smoke. Round 3/ Knock out. POP. Taxi @ 4:30am. Fiend Mode mission accomplished. Y.A.K

Day 7

FUCK... Wake up, meet up w/ cesar and hassan. meet up wit taaaanyaaaaa. got scooped by bitar, picked up romy, a sac and some brew. HOTBOX.. ffayded as fuck, get ready. bitars outside fucked up haha. figure out the situation. pop a thizz. head to a party.. WEAK. went to allens. tarik, namy, noway, hassan, cesar, tanya, romy, me posted everyones all fucked up playing BP. slimetime. blunts on blunts. 4:45am come home. chopped it up w. jrey on the fb lmfao funniest shit ever! fiend mode. Y.A.K

Day 6

Grandmas house. $$$$$$$$$$$. Swap meat. Brother//Daddy! Home. REGROUP!

Day 5

Uhhhhh.... met up w/ Momo, uNCLE matt, derek, kyle, and nicooole @ Anderson, smoked a blunt. Chilled, then mobbed it w/ Kyle and Levi to get some food. Pizza man has 99cent pizzas again! Grubbed a lilbit dipped to Robbys. BUSTED A MISSION! Got to Robbys, smoked some dankyzzzz! Got some 40oz, pounded both. Smoked some blunts. Feelin BOMB as fuck! But then it happened... MONIE YAKED FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER! Sad to say yes i threw up! I was on a fat comedown from that shit and yaked up everything, but after i was staraight kyle helped me out so i was chillin. Bomb ass night tho shit was too funny.