Prom...

Is tomorrow. I'm excited!

Prom

Is soon.

Last Night

Was a mother fucking trip, and I tripped the fuck out and that shit was crazy.

I'm a fucking psycho tripper so shit like that can't happen, like I trip out when i meet other psycho trippers. Damn -___- Fucking whoa.

Anyway I don't want to go into details on that, but Saams kickback is today so i'm excited for that. So yaaaashh (:

Friends...

How many of us have them?

Friends... The ones you can depend on?

New Tat Idea

So today I was thinking about my tattoo situation and I was thinking of more ideas for myself and I came across the whole Wolf thing. Since I am a partial desendent of the Aniyunwiya (Cherokee) Indians this suits me. Wolves have been a symbol of evil as well as good, either a demonic, brutal killer or a reflection of the mysterious, untamed wilderness. I think that's why this is a good idea for me as well. Wolves have either been looked at as a evil in some sort or looked up upon. Folk tales see the wolf as a threat to society, evil, demonic in a way. While Native-Americans see the wolf as a path finder or teacher. To them the wolf has great value and is looked upon as a strong and intelligent animal. This tat would have so much meaning to me. Because i'm Native- American, and as far as my characteristics I consider myself a wolf. The way I perceive myself and the way others perceive me is the way of the wolf. It's crazy how certain things can have a meaning that can completely describe you. Ha, anyways I also had the idea of changing my original Yin Yang idea and morphing it into a wolf and add some personal details and tweaks to it. I haven't decided yet, but I know for sure I am getting the wolf on my right ribs.

''Wolf Pack In This Bitch!''

WOW

I just realized that i've been through a lot of fucked up shit in my life.

Wow, Like I totally forgot about a lot of shit that's happened to me.

I guess I am stronger than what I think.

Lately

I've been having a lot going through my head. Things just were not making any sense to me, I was getting irritated and discouraged at the worst times. I couldn't really pinpoint where exactly all these negative emotions were coming from, or how I could stop them but they seem to be under control now. I really want to get to the source of my.. I guess I could call it ''depression'' states. But how do I do that? I don't know. I've been on an emotional roller coaster these past few months and even when I seem emotionally stable i'll try to think of reasons why this could be happening to me and it'll cause me to get upset, not because i'm sad but because I can't realize WHY! Right now so much shit is going on and I can barely take it all in. Between school, work, having a social life, dealing with my future, I feel like I have so much on my plate right now and my eyes are bigger than my mouth. I feel like I can't even really focus on what's important right now. Often times I wonder if I am starting to go crazy. Well I mean i'm already crazy but I think what little piece of sanity left is starting to fade away. I'm a complete different person, and it's all happening so all of a sudden. Only thing is I like it. Right now my life has it's Pro's and Con's. And I think I just figured out why everything seems to be too much for me. Now-a-days I am starting to not care what people think of me and my actions, I'm being more open with people about my life, sexuality, and beliefs, I feel like I am a better person now, then I have ever been. But with all this great self-discovery and what not there always has to be a balance of negative that I guess I have to overcome that will make my self-discoveries more valuable. Wow, I'm so glad i decided to blog, this really is making me appreciate my stumbling blocks. Hopefully I can be strong enough about this and overcome these whifs of heartache.

Jadie Wadie MY Babie!

MMMMMM Tasty ! :-* :) :P

Monie wants a boyfriend?

Maybeeeee ? o__O

I love my friends!

I really truly love these kids, they make me happy (:

The Time Is Coming!

Bitches Rollin Blunts

'' Good God I Love Marijuana! ''

-mo

Day 8

Woke up. Chilled all day. FREAK$$$ COME OUT AT NIGHT! Get swoopeed by Jon. Head to Dimas. POP. Smoke. Round 1/Round 2. POP. Smoke. Round 3/ Knock out. POP. Taxi @ 4:30am. Fiend Mode mission accomplished. Y.A.K

Day 7

FUCK... Wake up, meet up w/ cesar and hassan. meet up wit taaaanyaaaaa. got scooped by bitar, picked up romy, a sac and some brew. HOTBOX.. ffayded as fuck, get ready. bitars outside fucked up haha. figure out the situation. pop a thizz. head to a party.. WEAK. went to allens. tarik, namy, noway, hassan, cesar, tanya, romy, me posted everyones all fucked up playing BP. slimetime. blunts on blunts. 4:45am come home. chopped it up w. jrey on the fb lmfao funniest shit ever! fiend mode. Y.A.K

Day 6

Grandmas house. $$$$$$$$$$$. Swap meat. Brother//Daddy! Home. REGROUP!

Day 5

Uhhhhh.... met up w/ Momo, uNCLE matt, derek, kyle, and nicooole @ Anderson, smoked a blunt. Chilled, then mobbed it w/ Kyle and Levi to get some food. Pizza man has 99cent pizzas again! Grubbed a lilbit dipped to Robbys. BUSTED A MISSION! Got to Robbys, smoked some dankyzzzz! Got some 40oz, pounded both. Smoked some blunts. Feelin BOMB as fuck! But then it happened... MONIE YAKED FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER! Sad to say yes i threw up! I was on a fat comedown from that shit and yaked up everything, but after i was staraight kyle helped me out so i was chillin. Bomb ass night tho shit was too funny.

South Bay Living

Ok so, Last night when I was walking home from heathers house I was just thinking about how much I love the South bay. Like when I left here and moved to the Valley my whole vibe was off. Like I didn't feel comfortable in that city nor did i feel a sense of trust. But out here it's completely different. I can't really explain it. It's just I guess the overall vibes from everyone in the south bay is just chilling. I mean there's alot of fucked up people out here, but when the vibes balance out you just get so happy when your out here, or at least i do. I couldn't think of any other place i'd rather have spent my child hood. I can't imagine my life without the growings and teachings that the South bay had to offer. I might do alot of crazy shit but for some reason i feel like that helps me to handle my shit in life. Even though I fuck up, I still handle my shit. I can't wait until i move back here. Whenever my night is over, and I'm walking home from where ever, or if i'm just mobbing it to a hoomies pad or to get food i get so happy when i walk these streets. I just feel at peace, like where i belong. I cant see how anyone could have Southbay, I fucking love the city i live in.

Day 4

Goodmorning. Meet up w/ baby in lawndale. Taco bell, meet up w/ conejo smoke a J. Mobbin it, meet up w/ Samantha n Brett. Mobbing it in Lawndale. Get some shit. Smoke some shit. mobb it to hawthorne post @ the manor. smoke some shit. chill. dip from hawthorne, mobbing it to Northside(: Hadda go pee, and lokey pee'd on myslef while tryna bust a squat right quick. Hadda mobb to my pad to change my pants. Mobbit to heathers, del paige, anderson, pick up a sac from momo. blazed it w/ heather N Kreps @ anderson, played on the jungle gym shits dope. Mobbs to the pad. Up all night :D

Day 3

Woke up. Subway, Mucho Mango Met up w/ Heather and Kreps and Aida. Got a pack of Tecate and some bud. Went to 8th street posted, rosted. Got blunted, busted a mish 2 2nd. Cross Fayded as fuck. went home. Subway, Mucho Mango too fucked up to be home so Shamomo, Derek, and uNCLE mATt come to scoop we. Corey's house. chillin got blunted. watched youtube videos, funny as fuck. Orbit lights. Came home, much Mango God i love being home

Day 2

napsNapsNAPS! Lagggggggggg! Food, sleep, comp. Phone calls, plans. Stoia scoops me. Shmoke. Club run. Shmoke. Talk and chill, fayded as fuck hhahahahaaa. Home/SLEEEEEEEEEEP. wake up, 1:30am... wtF? Sleep, Wakeup, 8:10am, wants another blunt :D

Day 1

Came down with Jon and his friend Tyler. Dropped my shit off at my daddys. Met up with the Jeremy. Got some 40oz. Drank em. Went to a party, WEAK. Dipped out, then went to another partty. But it was more of a kickback. Got even more wasted smoked some weed. PrimeTIME AND CHAriZmaaaaa! YAK! Went to the Levas pad. Schwappy. Talked to the Android, kinda straightened shit out. Taco bell, no car, n0 food :( 711, we be steady mobbinnnnn YAK! mobbed home, knocked out. Woke up, bladder filled as fuck! And i feel like my liver is going to give up on me ahhaha! Currently, tryna smoke another blunt. LAAAATE

Let the Games BEGIN!

It's thursday, this week has been going by so slow! I need a cigarette!

Just got off the phone with Jeremy, straight schemin' for this weekend!

I might not go to the Andre Concert because I can't find a ride :( But if not then I can just slime a ride from patrick to RB cause I gave him 20 dollars @ Love Groove for the express line and he owes me. I can't keep thinking about spring break, this shits going to be down as fuck!

Well I'll Be Damned!

You got it, I won't lie.

It's all gravy baby.

So I'm just sitting here listening to some music trying to do some Psych homework and I just though i'd set some time aside to blog! Lately things have been going pretty swift. I have a job! Yah, I work @ Hollister, things there are pretty chillin. Max and I are doing great, I can't wait to see him next week for Spring Break. School is going really good, I guess I do work better in a smaller less distractive enviornment.

For some reason I've been really happy. I'm glad because for a little bit I wasn't doing so hot. I've realized that I want to become a bartender. I mean I come up with some pretty dope alcoholic mixes that get people on the level, why don't I share the love and make dranks for people. It would be such a chill job. And I can save up and work on opening up a Smoke Shop or something. THAT IS MY DREAM. I'm going to do it, I know it.

This summer i'm going ot move back to South Bay, i'm super stoked for that and I can hardley wait. Everything seems to be going to smooth! Things are up opening up and coming my way. I feel like i'm in my prime or something.

More In Love

Than I've Ever Been.


-m&mforever

Mr. EVANS... w0wstep, whuuuu?

My fucking nigga Ian goes too hard. I sware he's going places.

http://www.mediafire.com/?yozz2mnzzte , Check it.

Purple Wow

It's OVER

Greatest

I got you babe

Had a talk w/ the boy the other night and it really made me feel comfortable with our situation. With him I never know what really goes on in his head and we are usually on 2 completely different chapters. But now that we are both older and down to be more serious, we tend to be more on point. I'm not fucking this up again, lol, that's my baby. I'm really excited for the future, out future.

So I've decided that I want to be a bartender! Ha, yea honestly that's the perfect job for me. That or being a make-up artist. I'm really excited to just grow up and do things, get my place w/ Max, I just can't wait to be out of school and just chill.

Life is good.

Salvia Stoner Weekend

Whoa, so I honestly don't even know where to start. I guess I could tell you about my amazing trip.
So, we were all at Sams house, Me, Tiahna, and Alfred that is. I packed the bowl w/ some Mendo, and 40x Salvia. Then I hit it, probably shouldn't have mixed the weed in the bowl like that but in the end it was all good. So right after I hit it, it wasn't even a wait to feel it, I felt my soul coming out of my body and it floated away somewhere. For however long my soul was out of my body, Idl how long that was I was lost in a field of white. White floor, no walls, nothing up nothing down, I was just walking through nothing, like the end of the universe or something. Then I could feel my body spinning up and down and I landed in a garden somewhere. By this time my soul was starting to come back into my body, through my ears, mouth, my eyes, it hurt a little, but I could handle it. I could then see tiahna and alfred and sam, but they looked distorted and far away. There was music playing in the background, a song by the GorillaZ. All of a sudden I became attached to this fence made of popsicle sticks and i looked at my hangs and I was too. As the song was playing, my body was moving with the fence and it wouldn't stop it my mind was tangled in the words I was becoming the song. My body was the lyrics and it freaked me out, I forgot I had hit salvia and i was confused on why everyone was staring at me. I started to feel inferior like a child but that only lasted for a minute until i heard Sam say, ''Either she's trippin' really hard right now or her brain is gone!'' and right when he said that i saw a giant triangle light in the air with lines coming down and it went into my head only it didn't hurt, then i looked down and my brain was on the floor, so I wasn't afraid, I was feeling weird because my brain was on the floor. I tried to pick it up but there was no use, I think that's why now I feel like i've finally hit my perma fry, I didn't think i'd hit that until I was @ least 20 -__-
Anywho, after that i was fine. I just sat for a while and didn't say much because I was still trying to process what had happened, I tripped harder than I ever had tripped before in my life and I was trying to figure out why it took so long for that to happen. After I did that as crazy as it sounds I feel like when my soul floated away god washed it and then gave it back. I feel so different, like I have lots of energy, I'm happy, I'm willing to help out with things and i don't feel ''Bratty''. Sad part is, all I want to do is get really fucked up all day, I fiend, and when I don't have anything I drink, but I can handle it. The drugs make me normal. I love salvia, it changed my life :D

All I care about it getting high.

What's wrong with that? NOTHING. I'm pretty sure you all secretly don't give a shit about anything but one thing that's special to you. I'm just more upfront about it. Just because it's getting ''a high'' doesn't mean it's bad, it's just different than what YOU care about is all. Well, there's one thing that I care about more than getting high, or should I say a person. But that's another story.

I've been going through them one by one lately, but in the end i know who i'll always be with.
loveyouMax.

Got Nothin' On Me

Thoughts with Melody

Went through it all...

With noting to show for it. Off it, I need a stoge.

Check it

There's No Place Like Home.