Prom...

Is tomorrow. I'm excited!

Prom

Is soon.

Last Night

Was a mother fucking trip, and I tripped the fuck out and that shit was crazy.

I'm a fucking psycho tripper so shit like that can't happen, like I trip out when i meet other psycho trippers. Damn -___- Fucking whoa.

Anyway I don't want to go into details on that, but Saams kickback is today so i'm excited for that. So yaaaashh (:

Friends...

How many of us have them?

Friends... The ones you can depend on?

New Tat Idea

So today I was thinking about my tattoo situation and I was thinking of more ideas for myself and I came across the whole Wolf thing. Since I am a partial desendent of the Aniyunwiya (Cherokee) Indians this suits me. Wolves have been a symbol of evil as well as good, either a demonic, brutal killer or a reflection of the mysterious, untamed wilderness. I think that's why this is a good idea for me as well. Wolves have either been looked at as a evil in some sort or looked up upon. Folk tales see the wolf as a threat to society, evil, demonic in a way. While Native-Americans see the wolf as a path finder or teacher. To them the wolf has great value and is looked upon as a strong and intelligent animal. This tat would have so much meaning to me. Because i'm Native- American, and as far as my characteristics I consider myself a wolf. The way I perceive myself and the way others perceive me is the way of the wolf. It's crazy how certain things can have a meaning that can completely describe you. Ha, anyways I also had the idea of changing my original Yin Yang idea and morphing it into a wolf and add some personal details and tweaks to it. I haven't decided yet, but I know for sure I am getting the wolf on my right ribs.

''Wolf Pack In This Bitch!''

WOW

I just realized that i've been through a lot of fucked up shit in my life.

Wow, Like I totally forgot about a lot of shit that's happened to me.

I guess I am stronger than what I think.

Lately

I've been having a lot going through my head. Things just were not making any sense to me, I was getting irritated and discouraged at the worst times. I couldn't really pinpoint where exactly all these negative emotions were coming from, or how I could stop them but they seem to be under control now. I really want to get to the source of my.. I guess I could call it ''depression'' states. But how do I do that? I don't know. I've been on an emotional roller coaster these past few months and even when I seem emotionally stable i'll try to think of reasons why this could be happening to me and it'll cause me to get upset, not because i'm sad but because I can't realize WHY! Right now so much shit is going on and I can barely take it all in. Between school, work, having a social life, dealing with my future, I feel like I have so much on my plate right now and my eyes are bigger than my mouth. I feel like I can't even really focus on what's important right now. Often times I wonder if I am starting to go crazy. Well I mean i'm already crazy but I think what little piece of sanity left is starting to fade away. I'm a complete different person, and it's all happening so all of a sudden. Only thing is I like it. Right now my life has it's Pro's and Con's. And I think I just figured out why everything seems to be too much for me. Now-a-days I am starting to not care what people think of me and my actions, I'm being more open with people about my life, sexuality, and beliefs, I feel like I am a better person now, then I have ever been. But with all this great self-discovery and what not there always has to be a balance of negative that I guess I have to overcome that will make my self-discoveries more valuable. Wow, I'm so glad i decided to blog, this really is making me appreciate my stumbling blocks. Hopefully I can be strong enough about this and overcome these whifs of heartache.